| Stacey |
6/5/09
Tomorrow will be a ruff day. I have to go to a wedding all by myself. I should have said I wouldn't come but I always feel bad saying no. I will be thinking of you the entire time. Another first I wish I didn't have to deal with.
I love you
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/3/09
Vin -
I remember how you would do anything for me. How you loved me so much even when I didn't deserve it. No matter what a bitch I was to you I always loved you. Nothing else could ever change that. I thought we would have more time so I guess I took you for granted. I now appreciate all those little things you did for me. I would risk anything for you and I did then but if I would have done the one thing that was really important maybe you would still be here. To just hold your hand right now I would do anything. I know you always hated when I did that but I miss it. I miss hearing your voice, hearing you yell for me or at me, just the little things you do. Oh for one more chance to tell you how much you mean to me. If I could tell you now how you made me feel. I need you now! I have no one and it is so lonely without you. Please let me know or give me a sign that you have forgiven me.
I love you
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/2/09
Vin -
I am just stopping by to say hello. I love and miss you so much. I don't want to go to bed with you still mad at me, please tell me your not. Maybe I could sleep again if just for one night.
Life still sucks here without you and I don't know how much more of this I can take. I can't keep this going alone.
Forever and Always yours,
Stacey
XOXOX
| Stacey |
5/28/09
Hello again,
Things are still lonely and I am still missing you. I am seriously thinking about selling the house and I don't know if it is the right thing to do. I know you wanted me to keep it but I don't and can't stay here if I don't have a job.
I keep walking by that place in our home where you were last and I don't want anyone to enter there. I don't want to open the door. I wish I could keep this house and go somewhere else. Better yet I would like to take the house with me and move it to another state. Maybe I should just burn it down.
You were right about everything... I know you are smiling at that comment. I will never be loved like I was by you and I will never love again like I did with you. However I do miss having someone to go places with and hang out with. Maybe even watch movies with. That's it just a companion.
Love Always
Stacey
XOXO
| Stacey |
5/23/09
Vin -
There are so many emotions that I have that I don't yet understand. Others that I can't get passed. I hate all of them. The quilt, the sorrow, and the pain consume me. My love for you is eternal but still I feel as if I am always doing something wrong/ I still get mad when I wake up in the morning and I still wish one day I just wouldn't. I feel so alone even still and feel so unloved. People keep pushing me to find someone new - I know they mean well but the thought alone makes me feel guilty.
Why did you have to leav me so soon??
I miss you more than words can say.
XOXO
