| Stacey |
6/12/09
Still torn - still acting like a child. I just can't handle this now. Why is it that these things happen at the wrong time. As if there would ever be a right time.
I miss you today a little more than yesterday, if that is possible. Wondering what you are doing and if you are watching me with disgust.
Please forgive me.
I love you
| Stacey |
6/9/09
Wondering why I am feeling the way I do. I hate feeling so torn. Wanting things like a child that I shouldn't want or need. Please give me the answer on what I should pursue or not pursue. If not please let it go away. I can't stand it! I have that big interview tomorrow, I don't know if I can do it again. I don't know if I have that drive left in me to lead that way again. I wasted so much time on the last job that I missed the most important things with you. Now what is the point! Why do or why should I work so hard to get ahead? Why should I do that if your not here to share it with me. I have made so many mistakes and I don't think I can bear to do it again. God I miss you! My strength, my will, my life!
Goodnight my love.
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/8/09
Received some really crapy news about the house. I did hear some promising news about a potential job that would keep me here in NC. You know I don't want that. Maybe this is your way of telling me what to do next. We shall see.
I love you. Missing you today, tomorrow, and always.
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/6/09
Wedding was beautiful. I was still so sad during the ceremony remembering our our wedding and feeling that you were not there with me. Another first I did not want to imagine but I knew would have to come. Couples dancing - me sitting alone, it just sucks. I miss you more than words can say.
Love me.
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/5/09
Tomorrow will be a ruff day. I have to go to a wedding all by myself. I should have said I wouldn't come but I always feel bad saying no. I will be thinking of you the entire time. Another first I wish I didn't have to deal with.
I love you
XOXO
