Vincent S. Pepe

5/20/09

Hi Vin,

Just got home from NY. Another bitter sweet trip.  Your stone looks good and although they made a mistake it is the way I wanted it.  I was sad most of the time I was there. I just can't seem to do anything without looking to see if yoy are next to me or behind me. Julia looked beautiful. You know how lovable she is and what a kind heart she has, it was worth the trip.

I went to dinner after the confirmation and I was late. I walked in and Kenneth got up from the table to greet me and for a 1/2 of second I thought it was you. Obviously it wasn't and for a few moments I couldn't breath.  Then Julia came running over and knocked the wind out of me.

My trip did not make my decision any better, I still don't know where to go and what to do. I wish you were here to tell me.  Please give me a sign that you are there and that you are ok.

I love you

XOXO

Hi Vincent,

Sorry I have'nt written sooner, I just was'nt able to go on your website up to now. I keep remembering you standiing in my dorway so upset about Daddy, I was so happy you made here and  to the hospital, he knew you were there and forgave you for everything as you had also forgiven him. It was so hard loosing Daddy so quickly and to loose you 3 weeks later, I thought my heart would break in pieces.  It was and still is so terribly difficult to mourn two people that I love with all my heart and soul.  I miss your phone calls, but most of all I miss your wonderful laugh, that roar of a laugh that you did'nt have often enough.  I know life dealt you a hard hand in many ways and I am and always was so sorry, you had one thing after another, it seemed endless, and now I have to believe you are at peace and out of all pain and suffering.  You are with Daddy and Grandma and Uncle Steven, I can see you all together watching over us.  You truly are an angel, you were so moral in so many ways, it's a shame people did'nt know you the way I did, you had so much good in you and so many hurts, I always tried to make it better, but I never could.  I know this sounds funny, but you had a beautiful funeral, so many people came to pay respects to you, the place was mobed.  Stacey did a wonderful job, she even picked a casket that looked like your Harley, you got in death what you should have gotten in life, all your old friends were there to honor you, even Nicky's parents came, they were here from Flolrida.  I just wanted you to know that, people did care about you. 

 Julia made her confirmation last Wednesday, she picked the name Vingenza, we all miss you and Daddy so much.  Stacey came for her confirmation, she realy is a great person, I love Stacey like a daughter.  Tell Daddy I send my love to him and hugs and kisses to you both. 

I'll say goodbye for now, talk to you soon.  Please send us a sign you here us, that you are around us.  I Love You.

5/11/09

Vin -

I will be leaving tomorrow morning to come to NY. I will be there to visit you as soon as I get there. I'm taking the 'SS' something I would never do without you. Please don't be mad at me.

I love you.

Stacey

XOXOX

5/6/09

To the living I am gone.

To the sorrowful I will never return.

To the angry I was cheated.

But to the happy, I am at peace.

And to the faithful I have never left.

I cannot speak, but I can listen.

I cannot be seen but I can be heard.

Remember me, for if you always think of me I will never have gone

A year has passed, where has the time gone

How have I had the strength to carry on

I look up at the stars and dream of seeing your face

Without you here I still haven’t found my place

For whatever reason you had to leave me

For what it’s worth none of this has been easy

I still lay in bed at night and dream the impossible

A sign is all I ask for and I would be unstoppable

To know that you are together, to know you are safe

Even knowing this, my love for you will never be erased