| Stacey |
6/25/09
Hi Vin
Well another day another week has passed. I'm still so sad and angry. I miss you so much and wish youwere here with me. I hate feeling so alone. I know how selfish it sounds but I just lay here day after day. I expect so much from those I am close to because of the vacancy that it is in my heart. Even if I have it all it still wouldn't be you so I wouldn't be happy anyway. I will wait - my heart will wait for the day when I can hold you again.
I love you..
XXOOX
| Stacey |
6/16/09
Had another day of spending that I shouldn't have done. I don't know why I do it, it doesnt't make me happy. I got your sign today about the room. I am not renting it out. Mom and I were in Macy's today and her friend Joe called here. I asked here what he said and she said he ran into Vinnie... my heart stopped for a second. Obviously it was another Vinni, but for a brief moment I thought he was talking about you. I miss you so much.
Love me
XXOO
| Stacey |
6/12/09
Still torn - still acting like a child. I just can't handle this now. Why is it that these things happen at the wrong time. As if there would ever be a right time.
I miss you today a little more than yesterday, if that is possible. Wondering what you are doing and if you are watching me with disgust.
Please forgive me.
I love you
| Stacey |
6/9/09
Wondering why I am feeling the way I do. I hate feeling so torn. Wanting things like a child that I shouldn't want or need. Please give me the answer on what I should pursue or not pursue. If not please let it go away. I can't stand it! I have that big interview tomorrow, I don't know if I can do it again. I don't know if I have that drive left in me to lead that way again. I wasted so much time on the last job that I missed the most important things with you. Now what is the point! Why do or why should I work so hard to get ahead? Why should I do that if your not here to share it with me. I have made so many mistakes and I don't think I can bear to do it again. God I miss you! My strength, my will, my life!
Goodnight my love.
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/8/09
Received some really crapy news about the house. I did hear some promising news about a potential job that would keep me here in NC. You know I don't want that. Maybe this is your way of telling me what to do next. We shall see.
I love you. Missing you today, tomorrow, and always.
XOXO
