| Stacey |
6/6/09
Wedding was beautiful. I was still so sad during the ceremony remembering our our wedding and feeling that you were not there with me. Another first I did not want to imagine but I knew would have to come. Couples dancing - me sitting alone, it just sucks. I miss you more than words can say.
Love me.
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/5/09
Tomorrow will be a ruff day. I have to go to a wedding all by myself. I should have said I wouldn't come but I always feel bad saying no. I will be thinking of you the entire time. Another first I wish I didn't have to deal with.
I love you
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/3/09
Vin -
I remember how you would do anything for me. How you loved me so much even when I didn't deserve it. No matter what a bitch I was to you I always loved you. Nothing else could ever change that. I thought we would have more time so I guess I took you for granted. I now appreciate all those little things you did for me. I would risk anything for you and I did then but if I would have done the one thing that was really important maybe you would still be here. To just hold your hand right now I would do anything. I know you always hated when I did that but I miss it. I miss hearing your voice, hearing you yell for me or at me, just the little things you do. Oh for one more chance to tell you how much you mean to me. If I could tell you now how you made me feel. I need you now! I have no one and it is so lonely without you. Please let me know or give me a sign that you have forgiven me.
I love you
XOXO
| Stacey |
6/2/09
Vin -
I am just stopping by to say hello. I love and miss you so much. I don't want to go to bed with you still mad at me, please tell me your not. Maybe I could sleep again if just for one night.
Life still sucks here without you and I don't know how much more of this I can take. I can't keep this going alone.
Forever and Always yours,
Stacey
XOXOX
| Stacey |
5/28/09
Hello again,
Things are still lonely and I am still missing you. I am seriously thinking about selling the house and I don't know if it is the right thing to do. I know you wanted me to keep it but I don't and can't stay here if I don't have a job.
I keep walking by that place in our home where you were last and I don't want anyone to enter there. I don't want to open the door. I wish I could keep this house and go somewhere else. Better yet I would like to take the house with me and move it to another state. Maybe I should just burn it down.
You were right about everything... I know you are smiling at that comment. I will never be loved like I was by you and I will never love again like I did with you. However I do miss having someone to go places with and hang out with. Maybe even watch movies with. That's it just a companion.
Love Always
Stacey
XOXO
