Vincent S. Pepe

Vin -

I found out a few things about myself today, or I remembered somethings I wanted to forget. I just can't believe that was me. What a horrible person. Everyday gets harder. Why doesn't it just STOP! Why can't I believe you are happy and that you forgive me. I keep hearing it over and over again.. he would want you to go on with your lfe. What kind of Bullshit is that. Sometimes I just want to tell everyone to fuck off. You were the only one who was ever here for me whether it was by my own doing or not and you are the only one that completes who I am. For better or for worse we are one.  The more I try to find friends the more I realize I don't want any. The only exception are the "true friends" I have always had or the ones I think I still have. Maybe I won't scare them away.. if I do then so be it.  

Hi Hon.

Its been 38 weeks.. I just don't know where the time went.  It doesn't seem to be getting any better but I can't believe I have been without you for this long. 

It seems that someone else I know is going through their own pain too. I hope that it does not hurt as much for them as it does for me.

I love you and miss you more than words can say.

Yours forever

XOXO

Hi Vin.

Sitting hear dreaming of the day when we will be together again. Hopefully it wil be soon, there are just a few more things I want to do first.

I just wanted to let you know that I am giving the Z28 away to a friend a very special friend. It makes me feel a little bit human to give it to someone I know will appreciate it and will probably do what you wanted to do with it. I know it was our project but I can't bring myself to do it without you.

I know I am being selfish.  People still think I am a good person and I don't want them to know otherwise. If they only new what I did to you or more importantly what I didn't do. 

Forever waiting to see you.

I love you.

Love Stacey

XOXO

Hi Vin..

How are you? Are you happy? I just need to know that one of is. I know I wasn't always the best wife or friend, but I always love you. I want so much tell you to your face how sorry I am.

Life is still meaningless without you. The weather here lately refects the way I feel. It is always so cold and rainy. I don't remember this from last year. I am thinking about moving back to Flordia but I just can't bring myself to leave OUR home.

I can't get the motorcycle or the Z28 to start. It seems that it is not only me who needs to be repaired. You always made everything work. I miss that..among other things.

I still haven't felt or heard a word from you. Are you there???

I LOVE YOU..

FOREVER MISSING YOU.

XOXOX 

Hi Vin

Happy New Year. Well I managed yo stay in bed from 3 in the afternoon New Years Eve until 2 in the afternoon the next day. There is nothing to celebrate. We always stayed up to see the ball drop and just like clockwork somewhere around 11:45 it was time to have an arguement and right on cue time to kiss...

I wish for so many things selfishly. But what I would do for just one more moment....

2009 has to better than 2008 because I can't lose you again so there really isn't anything worse. I don't have any resolutions, plans, dreams or anything. I continue to wish the days by so I can see you again.

Please visit me in my sleep.

I love you.

XOXO