Vincent S. Pepe

3/30/09

Hi Vin,

Sorry, I 'm having another selfish moment missing you. It seems the night is the worst. Not that the day is bad  but the night makes me feel so inconsoleable and so alone. Just to have your arms around me you wouldn't have to say anything...

All those times you told me not to lean on anyone that people always left you alone when you needed them most. You were so right! ou were all I ever needed and I always new that I just didn't want to believe the rest.

You always protected me and now that feeling is gone. Now I have to start all over again, but I don't want to.

Always missing you...

XOXO

3/22/09

Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Today is your day! Happy Birthday - It is so hard to not see you here and not feel you.

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday dear Vinnie

Happy Birthday to you.

Eggplant Parm - and a Big chocolate cake with a big glass of milk.

Moma & Callie miss you too.

I love you - Happy first Birthday in Heaven.

3/20/09

Hello - Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! I found your wedding ring. I can't believe it. It made me so happy. Bittersweet but still happy. Back together again. No matter what - I'm forever yours, faithfully.

XOXO

3/16/09

Hello again my love.

There is so much I want to say. I just don't know what to say anymore. I sound like a broken record. I can't go on this way. With so much guilt. The pain in my heart alone kills me nevermind the guilt. I dreamed about you for the first time in almost a year. It was 3/14 - it was nothing magical or mysterious. It was just me and you in our daily life or the life that we once had. We were both laughing and joking around. I could hear your voice !! I woke up and I could hear it for another hour as if you were still in the room. You didn't deserve this!

I miss you -

Love you forever

XOXOX

3/11/09

Hi Hon,

The last few days it as been beautiful out. I have been driving with the top down another bittersweet moment. I can't believe that it is getting closer to that 1 year mark. In just 11 days it would have been your 44th birthday. Another milestone of days I wish would never have to come.  It's like I am getting closer to being even further away from you. Right now I can sit here and think what WE were doing on this date last year. What happens after May 4th? It's like you have been erased from existance but not from my heart. I'd do anything to bring you back..  My love I still miss you .. I will always love you. XOXO