2/10/10
Hello my love
I am starting to pack up a lot of stuff. I can't believe that I am actually the the point where I lost the house. I can't believe the bad decisions that I keep making. I am such a failure. I am so sorry that I couldn't make you proud of me. I miss you so much and maybe my heart is not in it anymore. I don't know. I think I am going to move back to NY but I don't know if that is the right answer either. I wish you could make this decision with me.
I love you - Miss you so much
XXOO