Vincent S. Pepe

I 'm falling apart. I am trying to hold onto you. I still see you in my mind. I'm holding onto to all the words you said to me. I hope what I heard is true...

When you get to the gates and the angels sing
Go to that place where the church bells ring
You know I'll come runnin'... runnin' to find you

I hope this will happen. I 'm hanging on to the hope this may be true but I just dont know. All I know is I miss you and love you.

I am still here. I haven't forgotten you 23 weeks later. As always work is overwhelming my life but not my heart. That is all for you. I wish I would have held on to us above everything else so you would have enjoyed your time here. I am so sorry.

I am still waiting for my sign. I miss you more than words can say. I wish I could touch you again and just talk to you, really talk to you instead of always blowing you off.

I know I always said nasty things but I didn't mean it. I thought you were so strong you'd make it through whatever so I took you for granted. It's so hard to except the fact your gone forever.. I am sorry.

Another night without you. I miss you my love. XOXO 

Another day goes by. Nothing new still missing you and waiting for you to come home.  The job that brought us to the place is almost over. I'm not sure how I feel about it except if we didn't come here maybe you would still be here with me.

I am so unsure of myself now. There is nothing I want to do. I wanted to do it all with you, family, career, travel the world. I don't care what happens now.

I miss you and love you forever. I cherish the time we spent together. Until we meet again. XOXO

I did a dreadful thing today. I had to move your motorcycle. I didn't want to but I needed to make room in the garage. Hopefully I don't need to do that again. I am still waiting for you to visit me and I pray everynight for GOD to hear me but it doesn't happen. Why can't I dream about you? I hope some of the reason is because you are enjoying your new life.

I have received all of the offers to move and I just can't bring myself to leave the last place we shared together. This place brings me both great sadness and sometimes great comfort at the same time if you can believe it.

I miss you so much. I still can't find the right words and I sound like a broken record. I found an old Video of us at Christmas time 2003 and right there in the middle of it all you just said "Hon, I love you." It was the greatest moment I have had over the past 5 months. It is all I have left to hold on to. I promise to keep it close forever. Goodnight my love.

Hello again my love.

Today is a special day. 10 years ago today was our first date. I know people say once you get married your wedding date is the important date but I believe in both. Today makes me sad. I can’t believe you not here, I love you and miss you.

Somewhere you are without me. Here I am without you.

I can’t express in words how much I miss you.

I pray every night for the sign you are still there,

Night after night my prayers go on unanswered, are you still here?

I don’t know why this happened, you didn’t deserve this

My life has changed forever I promise to never forget “us”.

Although you are on my mind everyday, today is especially hard. The world lost a great person I lost my best friend.

I miss you my love. Always.. XOXO