9/19/10
I can't believe that it has been 12 years today since our first date. I guess you would have never thought it would have been me and you forever after that first night. Oh my love, things are so different. I wouldn't say that I have moved on as others like to think I just keep my feelings and thoughts to myself. I am tired of explaining myself to everyone. No matter what my actions now or what I am doing I do it with a deep sadness and a void in my heart. I can't help who I fell in love with and I would do anything to hear you yell at me just one more time.. lol.
The room is still closed and I really don't want to open it. Your close are still where they were and I still have water in the fridge for you... just in case. If I could turn back time knowing what I know now I wouldn't change it except for spending more time with you and telling you that I love you more. I wonder if you still feel me or if you have forgotten about me. I hope you are happy my love as I once was.
I miss and love you forever and always.
FF - XXOO